You’ve been like an older brother to me, when you’re actually younger than me. I wouldn’t know where i would be without you. The last five months have been hell, but you’ve stood by me always.. You don’t judge my movements and i appreciate that cos i know some of it has been stupid. You’ve just always had my back regardless of my choices. No judgements just support. I love you for that, and i know i don’t listen to you sometimes, and i know what you say is harsh but it’s just meant to help me through right? I haven’t found this much support from someone ever before but it’s really nice to have, i know the last few days with me have been like hell, but thanks for giving me the shoulder the last 3 days. You are actually just the one person i can pour my heart out to and cry my eyes out without me being scared of what you would think. I’m in a shit place right now, a really shit place, but just thank you for being there for me, even at 5am when i call you cos i’m all over the place. Without you, this would be worse than the hell i feel like i’m going through right now, and i know i can always turn to you.. I haven’t spoken to no one but you in the last four days, just thank you. Even though thank you isn’t enough and no words can describe how much i appreciate you. You won’t lose me.. i promised you that. just let me find my own way back to me. xo

And we tried, of how we cried.. we lost ourselves, the love has died. And though we tried, you can’t deny.. We’re left as shells, we lost the fight..#